I’ve been really inactive here. There’s a very good reason for it, but I still shouldn’t have let the blog go this long without an update.

My mom has pancreatic cancer. She was diagnosed last August. She’s almost done with chemo now. I’ve been taking her to almost every appointment, chemo and otherwise, for the last 6 months. It’s been a hell of a time. It’s not going to ever get better.

The good news is that I have an appointment with a rheumatologist in 2 weeks. An appointment I had to wait a couple of months for because my doctor…well, my doctor sucks. But I’ll be seeing the rheumatologist soon and that will be good.

As far as books go, I haven’t ready many. I think I’ve only finished 2 books, Good Omens by Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett, and Mort by Terry Pratchett. At least, those are the only two I remember finishing. It’s been really hard the last few months for me.

Right now, I’m reading The View from the Cheap Seats by Neil Gaiman, and loving it. I’ve also decided this year is going to be the year for a Lord of the Rings and A Song of Ice and Fire rereads. I’ve already started on The Hobbit. I’m around halfway through. The Hobbit is my purse book and the Neil Gaiman one is my home book, mostly because The Hobbit is like a third of the size of the other one.

I’ll try to update again soon. It’s really shameful how long I went between updates last time. Wish me luck with the rheumatologist!

Symptoms, Thoughts, Uncategorized

Sleep Sucks

I’m not sleeping. When I get to sleep “early,” I sleep at 11:30. A normal night is 1:30 or 2 am. Then I have to get up at 7 or so, and start my day. I go through my whole day exhausted, until about 10 pm, at which time I’m practically wide awake and don’t want anything to do with sleep.

I’ve. Tried. Everything.

I’ve stopped drinking caffeine after 4 pm.

I don’t take naps during the day, hoping that will help me sleep.

I get up early to do things, and make sure I keep doing things all day.




I’m still not sleeping until around 1:30 or 2 am. I don’t really even know what to do at this point. Even Benadryl, which usually makes me so sleepy I literally cannot stay awake, doesn’t help me sleep. If anything, I actually feel more like crap the next day after taking it.

So, I’m at a loss. And I started googling to see if my exhaustion, and my sleeplessness is related to the ankylosing spondylitis, and found a study that seemed to conclude that fatigue is in fact related to AS. The study was, of course, comprised of all men, so I’m not sure what that means for me. Am I just some strange genetic anomaly? I have AS, but it’s as severe for me as it is for a man, even though I should be better off. My sister had problems with iritis, but never really followed up on anything. It’s possible she suffers from the same stuff, too, but she self-medicates so heavily that maybe it just doesn’t bug her anymore than her hangovers do. So where that leaves me, I don’t know. I feel like I’m in limbo, and it’s still another week before I see my primary care doctor and who knows how long after that before I finally see a rheumatologist. Hopefully it will be a quick referral.

Fingers crossed.

Reviews, Uncategorized, Updates

The Raven King Review

So, it’s been longer than I thought it would be since I was able to work on another review. My life has been crazy busy guys.

I did, however, find time to finish The Raven King by Maggie Stiefvater. I so wanted to love this book because I loved the rest of the series, but I just didn’t. The ending fell flat for me. I felt like there was more that needed to be resolved which wasn’t resolved. I liked that the other books left me with questions about what was going to happen next because I was pretty sure those were questions that were going to be answered in the next book(s). I do not like when a series ends like this, and that’s how I feel this series ended. There should be more closure than I felt I got from this book. And Blue’s kiss….was not how I felt it should have gone. It felt like she had no say in the matter, and she should have been able to have more control but at the same time, there was no time. I understand it, but I damn well didn’t like that that’s how the kiss happened.

So overall rating: 3/5. It was enjoyable, and I finished it pretty quickly, so I know I was invested. The ending just left me so disappointed, I’m not sure if/when I’ll be able to reread the books.



I know I’ve been inactive here for a while. Sorry about that. School kept me busy and I’ve been experiencing health problems which have made it impossible to read or be on the computer. Thankfully, school is nearly over, and my health is on the mend, so I should shortly be able to get back to a normal posting schedule.

I’m currently reading A Court of Mist and Fury, so that will be my next review, hopefully sometime next week. Until then, best wishes. 🙂